A 2 Months Filled with Activities

I did not realised that I have been going out practically every weekend since Raya until I was chatting with Joann on Yahoo Messenger somewhere last week.

Approximately 2 years before this, my life had been pretty boring and sedate. The ex does not like doing anything physically strenous on weekends and prefer to go to the same old haunts or just chill at home. Sure, he complained about having boring weekends and staying home too much. He talked about places he used to go and when I suggested that we go back to those places, he refused to go! Perhaps, he just did not want to bring me to those places.

I guess a part of being boring was also my own fault; I revolved my life around the ex too much! Oh, I could so see him defending himself and point out that he has never stopped me from going out with my friends. Whether he realises it or not, I do not go out that often with my friends because he made me feel so guilty for leaving him alone at home by sending text messages or talking in a really pitiful voice over the phone. The only time that he does not bother my outings with my friends was when he has his own activities – either meeting his friends, doing work or having a good time.

It does not help that he does not like going out with my friends or hanging out with them. I know my friends struggle with him and vice versa. There was an obvious difference in thoughts and wavelength. Come to think of it, I do not know how I managed to take it for close to 2 years. Eeek!

On the other hand, things are different with Haji. Haji, being a sports and physical activity inclined creature, cannot stand staying at home all the time. This characteristic of his seems to gel very well with mine because I do like going out and participating in outdoor activities – I just never used to have kakis to go out with or the right information to ask people, until now. And every time I am feeling lazy, he indirectly pushes me out of the lazy zone to move, move, move.

The last 2 months saw the both of us exploring new haunts for makan, going out for live performances, meeting our friends (a balance of his and my friends) and going for physical activity such as Skytrex. We will be doing at least one different thing every weekend or every fortnight. What I love about us is how we do not repeat the same thing too often or at too close an interval. There is a variation in the things we do, experience or even eat! Well, except for coffee and cigs.

I am able to make plans with my friends on any nights that are most convenient for us and Haji will be cool with it. I usually extend these invitations to him too and if he can join my friends and I, he will. However, when I stressed that I want it to be a girly night (as evident during the outing to watch Cuci The Musical), he will give me a kiss and a hug, wish that I have a good outing and be off with his own plans! I do not even need to feel remotely guilty for leaving him alone cause I knew that he would be able to find some activity to fill up his time! Furthermore, I knew he genuinely wanted me to have a good time out with my friends.

Just in case anybody thinks this is a comparison post between the old and present, let me put in a disclaimer right now and say that it is not. I am just amazed at how different I lead my life these days. A change that happened in a matter of a few short months. I love who I am with right now. I am taking belly dancing classes. I am exploring and experiencing more things. I am contented.

What started out as a dready 2009 that peaked in the middle of the year seems to have transformed into something pleasant for me to end the year. I hope this happy feeling continues into 2010 and many more years to come.