Life as it is

It was Sassa Lyn’s 1st year death anniversary 2 days ago. It felt like it was just yesterday when I found out the shocking news of her passing.

I was going through the many drafts left in this WordPress dashboard when I stumbled upon a piece where I wrote briefly about Lyn’s passing a year ago. I don’t quite remember why I never finished it or posted it up but I guess it is time to post up what was written 12 months ago; no matter how brief it was.

One year ago, Lyn passed away from stroke. She was only 32.

I do not know Sassa Lyn very well but we had hung out with one another in group outings in the past before. She was the very same person who provided me with juicy gossips and news to chew on on the ex-manager of mine from my first job. She had also dished out some really good advices for me when I was in a dilemma on what to do with that ex-manager. Although I hardly see her or hung out with her back then, I had always thought that there would be many more chances in the future to catch up with her – dinner, movies, outings.

Life is such a fragile little thing. One second you’re alive, the next second, you’re not. How many of us have actually gone through such life altering experiences? Experiences where you thought you’re turning into dead meat? Moments where your whole life literally flashed in front of you?

Those sort of situations can be managed because if you come out alive from that experience, it forces you to appreciate your life more. It’s the unexpected that is hard to manage. In the past year, I have seen Lyn’s friends mourned for her. I saw some of them at their lowest and a part of me was in awe at how big an impact Lyn must have made in their life for them to take her passing so badly. Don’t get my wrong. I am not envious or felt remotely anything close to that. Just in awe. And also sad that I will never have the opportunity to get to know her better.

I also felt a sense of irony when I realised that it was Lyn’s 1st year death anniversary 2 days ago. Over the weekend, I found out that a distant relative had passed away. She was only in her early 30s and apparently, had been suffering from cancer for many, many years now. What made me think in disbelief was the fact that I just saw her during Chinese New Year this year. She looked so healthy and radiant – pretty as always. There were no signs of pain in her face at all.

Sometimes, I cannot help but feel that the death of those we know are a reminder from God or life to remember that we do not have always and forever to live our lives. We should always seize the day, do the things we want, make ourselves happy and most importantly, live life with no regrets.

Carpe diem, anyone?

By the way, if you can, and if it is not too much trouble for you, please include Lyn and my cousin who had left us in this world in your prayers. I wish I have a way to find out and confirm that they are in a much better place now.