The Unexpected

Life is so unpredictable, isn’t it? Just when you think you are getting the hang of things, it throws you a curve ball that upsets the balance you have carefully built to a comfortable level.

Life has never ceased to amaze me thus far. Then again, if life is monotonous all the time, then what is the point of existence in the first place, no?

Take, for instance, the break up with the ex. I admit, I was comfortable with what we had. Very comfortable. Unexpectedly, the break up happened and I was pushed out of the comfort zone. The break up was the curve ball and I find myself having to readjust my life and viewpoints of the world from another perspective.

Another good example is my debut in dance. I have always been complacent in life. Always not being brave enough to try out new things. Always end up in envy of others who were passionate and bold enough to go after what they want and love. Unexpectedly, life threw me another curve ball in the combination form of Fluffball and Short+Sweet Dance. It was a challenge to get out of my comfort zone and boy, did I grab hold of it and hang on tight.

There is a long list of unexpected things that had happened in my life. There is no need to go into details for each one of them. Whenever something unexpected happened, I find myself constantly struggling to make sense of things be it good or bad. Whatever way that I had reacted to each and every one of it, I am glad that these unexpected events had made me into who I am today – not perfect, with flaws but still human with the ability to love.

One or two unexpected things have recently cropped up in my life. I will not go into the details yet as I am still trying to rationalise things out in my mind. Are they good or bad things? Depends on how you see it. One thing for sure though, it has made me slightly happier in the past couple of days.

Still, I am not brave enough to jump in in it wholeheartedly yet. Yes, fear is holding me back but for a good reason. I do not want past mistakes to repeat and I want to be fair. Only time will tell, eh? (And hopefully the brain is not too muddled up to think logically. Heh.)