Heart murmur

Two weeks ago, I had never ever heard of the words heart murmur. Two weeks later, now, I had read up as much as I could on this abnormal heart sound known medically as heart murmur. Though I may not know understand 100% bout it, I know enough to realise that when someone has heart murmur, something may be very wrong with his/her heart or it could just be the normal way his/her heart works.

Why the hell in the first place would I want to know what heart murmur is? Fact: I’ve been told by a 2 different doctors that they could detect it when they’re listening to my heart sounds through a stethoscope. Both doctors said that the abnormal heart sounds are only very faint or soft, hence leading me to believe that it’s probably only a Grade 1 murmur. Both doctors, a Dr Wales (who was my medical officer for my visa medical checkup) and a Dr Jones, had kindly explained the functions of the heart and how a murmur occurred but it was Dr Jones who diagnosed it as a systolic murmur. He did not tell me personally what he had diagnosed, instead I read his notes on the piece of referral letter he gave me to give it to the cardiologist.

Anyway, I finally went for an ECG and echo test today after nearly a week’s long wait. The radiologists who took the tests for me both said that everything seems fine but told me that it’ll be better to wait for the cardiologist to write a thorough report after more in-depth viewing of the echo images and ECG graphs. That’s gonna be another week’s wait.

*sigh*

For some weird reason or other, I’m just not worried about the outcome of the tests. Whether I really have a serious problem with my heart or not, I’ll deal with it later when the reports are out. But for the time being, I’ve come to learn to try not to worry bout things that are beyond our own control, things or situations such as this particular heart murmur problem. LoL. Guess I’ve moved up a small tiny step on the ladder of maturity.

An officially unemployed graduate

Exactly two weeks ago, I’d been officially stamped with an unemployed graduate title to my name. Finally, after all those years of tolling in school, college and university; after all the fails and distinctions that come my way for more than 15 years; I’d finally graduated and can now tell the world that I’m one those many fishes in the sea holding a Bachelor’s degree. It’s not an easy feat to be where I am today and there were many times along this long and tiresome journey where I contemplated throwing in the towel for good. Nevertheless, at the end of the day, I kept pushing myself knowing that I can achieve what I’d set my heart on. Plus, I wanted to prove to myself and the people around me that I am no failure.

I know that there are many university graduates out there and one extra graduate (me) coming into the working world is no big deal for many people. Still, only those who had been through what I’d been through – failing and repeating Pre-U studies, changing from Sc to Arts, doing a whole new degree that seems so foreign to me (which I end up loving it and never regretting the choice I’d made) with discouragement and disapproval from so many people around me – will understand why finally graduating is such a big and important event to me.

Mum and Aunty Pat were the only family who made it to my graduation 2 week nights ago. Jo and James came along to rejoice in my moment with me together. There were a few stressful moments that night but despite those moments, everything went accordingly to plan and the next thing I know, me and a few hundred graduates that night were being applaused by everyone who attended the ceremony when we were walking out of the Perth Concert Hall after the ceremony ended. I was consumed with a feeling that is beyond description and was brought close to tears that night. But being the typical proud Leo that I am, I refused to let the tears roll down and walked away feeling satisfied and contented that I had succeed in getting a degree in the field of work that I like.

I know a lot of people would have expected that I’d sent out my resumes to companies by now. In actual fact, I’ve yet to start writing my resume. I do not really know how to write a good resume and cover letter, plus the fact that I’m planning to travel to Sydney and Melbourne by myself in two weeks time for a couple of weeks before I go back to Malaysia for good, I’ve sort of postpone writing the resume til Uni opens on Tuesday after the Easter break.

Anyway, are there are places in Sydney and Melbourne that I absolutely must not miss despite the obvious touristy things that I need to complete? Also, does anybody knows if there are any job openings available that are related to public relations? All feedbacks are very much appreciated!

Updates later

Just got back to Perth from a roadtrip with Mum around the southern part of Western Australia. Will update bout the trip within these few days when I’m not as dog tired as I am now.